It's finally here...
My last semester of dental hygiene school is half way over. Talk about exciting, and scary, and overwhelming! I literally want to throw up or just die every time I think about school. And well, sadly, school is one of the only things I can really think about so I feel pretty crummy most of the time.
I knew dental hygiene school would be hard. I knew I would be pushed and tested and want to quit- but honestly I've never wanted to quit more in my life than I do right now! Nobody can understand what dental hygiene is and how hard the schooling is until they've done it. They just can't!
I think the hardest part of it all is finding my own patients. I've done it for 3 full semesters and just have to do it for 6 more weeks, but I'm all out of resources! Would you believe me if I said I asked some guy at the gas station to be my patient? And he said yes... but then cancelled! I never ever saw myself asking random people if they would get their teeth cleaned. I think that because he sparked conversation it was easier.... I see people sometimes and want to ask them- but how creepy! How do I just start talking to them?
"Hey, I notice you have gross teeth- wanna get them cleaned for $10?"
Ya right!
I have called countless people, placed numerous online ads, asked patients for referrals, but I still haven't had much luck. One instructor said she wondered if we weren't trying as hard as other semesters because so many of us have cancellations or no shows. Really? I think we have just used all the resources we have and are seriously tapped out!
My boards are coming up soon. I scheduled 2 of them! November 9th and November 17th.. Am I ready for them? NO WAY! But ready or not...here they come! It will be nice to have those two out of the way before our trip to California for Thanksgiving, so I have to keep thinking of the bonuses!
I need all the strength I can get right now, so PLEASE keep me in your prayers! I've never needed them more! One of our instructors told us that a good ole' car scream would really help sometimes. You know... just get in the car and scream at the top of your lungs. Well I tried that tonight for the first time- I didn't like it. It was the most shrill, terrifying thing I have ever heard! I scared myself! But seriously, I need all the divine help I can get to make it out of this thing sane. And I don't expect people to really understand- because they really can't!
One week in December looks a little like this:
December 9th, 10th, and 12th- Finals
December 9th- Graduation party
December 12th- Graduation
December 14-15th- Anesthesia Written and Clinical Boards
December 16th and 17th- Clinical Boards
December 19th- MOVE :)
Move! What move, you ask?
Let me bring some optimism into this post, shall we? Bridger was offered a job in Meridian, Idaho!! We are officially moving December 19th! We were worried we would get sent somewhere like Burley- do they even have a dentist there? We would've done it of course, but also glad we don't have to! I felt immediate conflicting emotions when I heard the great news. I was so happy for Bridger and excited for his opportunity. I was excited to move back home to be around our family and some friends... excited to actually earn more money than we have in bills.... excited to be out of our one-bedroom apartment- and I was also sick to my stomach knowing that we would be leaving friends here! We've made some of the best friends in the world while being here, and I really will be so heartbroken to leave! I knew it would happen sometime, but it just snuck up on me. Like I said in an earlier post- Why can't all the people I love just live in the same place? But as my mom always says, "Sometimes it isn't always bad to miss something." I have been incredibly blessed to be surrounded with people that are filled with such goodness. For that I am so GRATEFUL!
It will be weird to move from the only apartment Bridger and I have ever known in our three years of marriage, but we really are excited to see what lies ahead for us.
Here comes the final countdown!!
